Le Journal

 I am sick, my mental health is drowning. Because of my catastrophic thinking. A lot of happened today. This is so hard, I could barely handle it. My motivation is just to overcome day by day and write a productive result. I am aware that I made a lot of mistakes, but that's what the PhD do right? making a lot of mistakes. Not a perfection. If it is perfect already. I am now a doctor, not a student. I am aware that my mental health is not good enough. Many things happens and change at the same time. I even don't want to dare where I am in the next couple of month. Ya Allah forgive me, forgive me, forgive me. Whatever I do, whatever I drive, I could handle this. I could face the situation. The CoC, it is so easy for Allah swt to get me to be here with my family. Let alone the whole PhD and thesis journey. Of course I can, take care of myself.  The learning curve here is amazing. I am not knowing anything. Here be good for everyone. For the sake of I could not fail. I don't d...